Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Parashat Vayigash - Genesis 44:18- 47:27

“And Judah approached him (Joseph) and said, please my lord, may I speak with you without your anger flaring…..?” (44:18). This dialog between Judah and Joseph is one of the most poignant moments in the book of Genesis.

Yehuda is the Hebrew for Judah and comes from the verb-root yod-dalet-hey. This word teaches us a fascinating lesson. As many words in Hebrew, it has two meanings. Most commonly I think of hodaya as thankfulness or gratitude. We say upon arising “Modeh ani lifanekka… I am grateful to you….” The second meaning of hodaya is that of confession.


What is the relationship between gratitude and confession? How does acknowledgment of life’s gifts relate to acknowledgment of mistakes? Perhaps through confronting our fallibility and error, we reach a deeper level of gratitude. Perhaps Judah’s life experience has taught him appreciation for the complexity and preciousness of family relationships; thus, he moved toward leadership and responsibility.


The depth of the Genesis familial stories lies in their complexity and in the deep lessons we can glean from the faults, blunders and heroic actions of the characters.


May our wise hearts help us as we engage with the path of Yehudim – spiritual descendants of Yehuda – a path of hodaya – of both gratitude and teshuva,


Rabbi Sara Leya

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Friday, December 5, 2008

Parsha Va-Yetseh – Jacob’s Ladder, Balancing Heaven and Earth


By Zelig Golden


In Parsha Va-Yetse, Jacob goes out into the world in a way that neither Avram nor Yitzakh could. He is the first person we see in Torah who actually works for a living, and it is in his struggle to balance the needs of him and his family in the material world with his spiritual endeavor of uncovering G-d consciousness, that Jacob fully comes into his power.


The parsha opens with Jacob leaving for Beersheva to fulfill his fathers’ wish that he finds a wife back in his mother Rebecca’s home of Haran. Like Isaac’s prayer in the fields that opened him to his love for Rebecca, Jacob discovers the key to striking his balance while alone in the desert alone, before encounters true love with Rachel.


On the way to Haran, Jacob lies down, his head on a stone, and dreams of a ladder set upon the earth with its top touching heaven. Angels are ascending and descending before him as G-d appears to Jacob and promises that the land upon which he sleeps will be for him and his offspring. Rambam teaches that Jacob’s dream is one of ultimate security – G-d promises: “I am with you, and will guard you wherever you go.” Yet Jacob is afraid. As the Midrash teaches, G-d asks Jacob “Why don’t you go up the ladder?” The Midrash explains that Jacob feared that if he ascended, he would also have to descend. However, G-d promises Jacob that if he climbs the ladder to heaven, he will not have to descend, yet he still refuses to climb. Why?


When Jacob returns from his dream, he proclaims “Surely G-d is in this place, and I did not know it!” “How awesome is this place! This is none other that the home of G-d, and that is the gateway to heaven.” Jacob understands from his dream that the holiness of G-d in heaven is found equally on earth – that earth is equally the home of G-d. Indeed, the Hebrew word Makom, or “place,” is one of the many names for G-d.


Jacob’s encounter with the ladder, connecting heaven and earth, is Jacob’s ultimate teacher on how to balance his life in the material and spiritual worlds. The ladder teaches him that the holiness found in heaven is equally found here on earth. Thus Jacob occupies the seat of balance in our tradition by living in direct communication with G-d as he lives, works, and loves right here on Earth.


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Thursday, November 20, 2008

Parashat Hayei Sara

Shabbat Commemorating Transgender Day of Remembrance

“V’Avraham zakein, ba bayamim, va-Adonai beirakh et Avraham bakol.

And Abraham was old, advanced in days, and Hashem had blessed Abraham with everything” (B’reisheit 24:1)

The Holy Zohar interprets the words “ba bayamim” literally, saying that Abraham was old and “came into his days”. The Zohar considers of the days of human life, according to D. Matt, Ph.D., as “living entities, preceding one’s earthly existence and enduring afterward.” If our days are alive, then we are called to deeply experience that life in each moment.

The Zohar continues, telling us that throughout all of Abraham’s days, he drew closer to the Holy, rung by rung, step by step, drawn inward (and upward). “Happy is the one whom You choose and bring close” (Ps 65:5). The Ein Sof desired that Abraham come into his particular place, so that when Abraham finally grew old, he attained his ultimate rung of knowing the mystery of faith “raza d’meheminuta”. From this place of timelessness – which is beyond days – all blessing and goodness flows. And thus Abraham (and we, too) receive the blessing of the spiritual path. The text begs us to ask ourselves, “what is the mystery of my own faith, what is my personal secret to a spirit-infused life? (Can I even ask myself this question?)”. In our text there is a to-and-fro movement, Abraham always reaching for the next step and the Divine extending a hand, as it were, in aid. At times it is we who might initiate the movement, at times it is the Infinte calling us closer.

Further the Zohar tells us, “Happy are those who are masters of returning”. Through teshuva we can each approach the special place, and take hold of the special mission, that is particularly designed for us. And, thus we are blessed. Each day is a new returning, a new rung on our soul-ladder. With each conscious moment and each conscious movement, we get closer to intuiting our life’s purpose.

Yesterday, 11/20/08 was Transgender Day of Remembrance, set aside for especially remembering those who have had their lives cut off prematurely because of being Transgender. This Zohar teaching is so appropriate for this time because it reminds us that each of us has our unique soul-journey to discern and follow. The practice of teshuva is a path to discovering our soul-essences. Each of our lives’ paths and stages has its own special blessing. For many of us, gender has not been an issue of concern, but for some of us, it is the essence of our spiritual path. In the words of Chochmat HaLev’s beloved Maggid Jhos Singer “Maybe some of us were selected to take on this work. Perhaps it’s not just about me and my comfort.”

Let’s bring intention and integrity as we come into every day with consciousness. We remember the importance of every life and every day of our lives. We honor the memories of those who have lost their lives in following their soul- paths. (This Shabbat we also remember the 45th anniversary of JFK’s assignation!). Let’s pray together for the end of interpersonal violence.


With wise-hearted blessing from the timelessness in each day and the preciousness of each life,

Rabbi SaraLeya

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Thursday, November 6, 2008

Parashat Lekh L’kha

ve’h’yei b’rakha…v’nivrikhu v’kha kol mish’p’hot ha-adama. Be a blessing! … and, through you, all the families of the earth will be blessed!” (B’reisheit 12: 2-3)


With this week’s parasha, we begin the saga of the forefathers and the foremothers that starts with Avram and Sarai’s journey. We will be immersed in this complex, and often troubling, generational story through mid-January, ending with Joseph and his family in Egypt.


Avram is told by the Holy One to leave his familial home and go on a journey. He is not told the ultimate destination. He is reassured that he will become a great people and will be well known, but his main charge is to “be a blessing”. The words are often translated “and you shall be a blessing,” but the Hebrew is clear – it is an imperative, a command – not a reassurance.


I ask us, this week, to consider what it means to be commanded to be a blessing. How might it affect my life if I accept that my mission is to be a channel – a tzinor – of blessing for the rest of the peoples of the world?


As spiritual descendents of Avram – who by the end of our parasha will be renamed Avraham when he enters into covenantal relationship with Hashem, we, too, are given this charge. Our lives are to be dedicated to being sources of goodness and vitality and righteousness and impeccability. Through our intentional living, we increase Divinity in this world. Kein ye’hi ratzon! So may it be!


With blessing for wisdom of heart and clarity of intention,


Rabbi SaraLeya

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Parashat Noah

“And the Holy One saw the rampant evil in the world and…regretted ever creating humankind, and felt deep heart-sadness - vayityatzeiv al libo ….[but] The eyes of the Holy One saw grace – hein in Noah. Noah was righteous and whole as he walked with G!d. … and the earth was full of hamas – violence” (B’reisheit 6: 5-11).


Usually, when we read this parasha, we focus on the story of the flood, the ark full of paired animals, the dove with the olive branch and the rainbow covenant.


Today, however, I ask the question: what is the lesson we can learn from the way Torah describes Noah? Noah’s name comes from the Hebrew la-nuah, meaning to rest, to be pleasing or to be set down in place. When the letters nun-het are reversed, we have the word hein or grace. When one is at rest, centered and calm, one is in a state of grace. When one accepts one’s circumstances, Presence, too, can rest. This is contrasted to the violence and evil of the entire world surrounding Noah. Despite the temptations of his generation, Noah is called righteous and whole, walking the path of closeness with the Divine.


Noah’s name and traits teach us, that, even in the worst of circumstances, one can become a center of integrity and calm. And so, in the midst of the maelstroms of conflict and emotion in our families and communities, we, too, can be at ease in our own wholeness, staying connected to what we know to be True. Our world, too, can be full of conflict and violence and negativity, but I bless each of us that when the Holy One gazes upon us, She sees grace and calm, wholeness and decency. I bless us that we can have the serenity and acceptance that will allow us to manifest our missions in repairing our world.


With blessing for the grace and centeredness to manifest Wisdom of the Heart,


Rabbi SaraLeya

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Sukkot 5769

“S’molo tahat roshi vimino t’habheinihis left arm is under my head and his right arm embraces me”. So says a lover in the Song of Songs (8:3). Minimally the sukkah must have two walls and a hand-breadth length of a third wall: thus, the sukkah is compared to this embrace of lovers. Metaphorically, we are being held in the arms of the Holy One when we are in our sukkah.


As we spoke about over Yom Kippur, when we have fully engaged with wonder and trembling during the Days of Awe, we receive Divine love as a gift. This is the essence of Sukkot, z’man simhateinu, the time of our joy. Together we experience the sense of being held, being protected, being cared for.


Why else is Sukkot specifically called the season of our joy? Being joyous on every holyday is a mitzvah – a way for us to connect our lives with Divinity – but the mitzvah of joy is mentioned specifically about Sukkot. Joy is the essence of the holiday of Sukkot. Psalm 100:2 teaches us to “serve Hashem with joy – ivdu et Hashem b’ simhah . If we are always to serve the Divine with joy, what is so special about Sukkot?


Our process of teshuvah begins with the 40 day journey from the beginning of the month of Elul to the release of Yom Kippur. During that time we experience remorse, sadness and, hopefully, forgiveness. We arrive at Sukkot having done serious spiritual work – avodah – and we can rest in the sukkah, in the shelter of the wings of Shekhinah, protected by the canopy of peace and wholeness – the Sukkat Shalom that we pray for during the evening service. As a community, Chochmat HaLev certainly experienced joy when danced together at Neila – but even that is not enough, we need Sukkot to complete the process of teshuvah, and thus to know true joy. The special joy of Sukkot is the certainty that we are accompanied on our journeys by the love and protection of the Holy Blessed One. And… the metaphoric Book of Life is not sealed until Shimini Atzeret, the 8th day of the Sukkot season when, traditionally, Jewish worshipers gather to say the blessings for the rainy season and again to recite Yizkor, the memorial prayer (this year Tuesday 10/21).


My blessing for Chochmat HaLev is that each of us will be able to sit in a sukkah this year and feel the Divine embrace, so that we can share this knowing of love, protection and containment with each other as the ground of our spiritual community. Through this experience my we experience the most profound joy ever!



With blessing for wisdom of heart and mo’adim l’simhah – for seasons of deepest joy!

Rabbi SaraLeya

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Parashat Vayeileikh

This year as I read this parasha, I was struck by a linguistic theme in the latter chapters of Deuteronomy. The Hebrew word-root s-t-r –seter- secret/hidden is used in two different sections. There is that which is revealed to us – nigleh - and that which is hidden - nistar.


Last week we read: Ha nistarot Ladonai…v’ ha-niglot lanu- the hidden are Hashem’s and the revealed are ours (Deuteronomy 29: 28) Perhaps this means that what is not yet manifest in our lives, nonetheless lives in the infinite potentiality of the Divine Mind. Only when we exercise our power of choice does a specific possibility actually become manifest. We sometimes use “The Mystery” as a name for the Divine, which might imply that we live in awe of the hidden ways the Universe manifests in our lives. We delight in the uncovering of the sod, the mystical interpretations of Torah, in revealing hidden meanings.


In this week’s parasha, we read the prediction that, when the Children of Israel break their covenant with the Holy One by worshiping other gods, Divine anger will be manifest, the Divine Face will be hidden and tragedy and troubles will occur- v’hara api bo…v’histarti panai. When the Israelites acknowledge their role in this predicament, Hashem affirms, v’anohi hasteir asteir pani – I will surely (continue) to hide My Face… (Deuteronomy 31: 17-18). Because of our actions, God’s self is now hidden from us. When the Divine Face is hidden, we experience abandonment and disaster. God is concealed. In fact, Martin Buber wrote a book about Holocaust theology called “the Eclipse of God”.


I bring these two verses to your attention so, during these Days of Awe and Teshuva, we can meditate on what it means for there to be revealed and not-yet revealed realities. When we think of the Divine as The Mystery, we are thrilled at the hint of a deeper mystical dimension of life – the hidden potential to infuse life with light and meaning. But when the Divine is in hiding we may experience that same Mystery as alienation and abandonment.


I invite us to contemplate these sections of Deuteronomy. How are they both speaking about the Light of Divinity which, for those with faith, is always present? How does one come to such faith? What might it mean for the hidden mysteries to be so fascinating and meaningful, but the hidden face to be so dismal?


I ask your forgiveness for any ways which I may have slighted, offended, or otherwise been less-than-impeccable in our dealings with each other. Know that such errors have not been intentional. Please, let’s work with such challenging situations to advance our Conscious evolution. I look forward to our unfolding and deepening relationships.



With blessing for wisdom of soul and heart,

Rabbi SaraLeya

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Parshah Ki Tavo

With this parasha we return to the challenging theology of the book of Deuteronomy, the paradigm of covenantal promises. If children of Israel follow YHVH’s commandments, they will be blessed, and if they don’t, they will receive the opposite. There are several verses with very general blessings, but, oy!!! …there are several pages of tokheha, of admonition, listing all the specific and dire consequences of our failure to fulfill the covenant. (This tokheha is traditionally read rapidly and quietly during the Shabbat Torah reading so as not to give further spiritual reality to the very difficult and graphically-negative words.) We are asked to believe that if we behave correctly –according to the guidelines set out by Moses, blessing will flow; and if we mis-behave, we will be much less fortunate, even cursed.


The text is troubling, because we know that this world-view is too simplistic. We know that “bad things happen to good people” and the scoundrel often appears to win the prize. Yet, we also know that our choices do affect the quality of our lives. In fact, back in Genesis, Abraham is told (Deuteronomy 12:2) “vehyei brakha” – be a blessing! We can walk the spiritual path so that we bring spaciousness and equanimity into our lives; or, we can live the unexamined life and allow reactivity or anger rule our moment-to-moment existence. Our actions are important in and of themselves, not just as means for being rewarded.


Once again we are asked to expand our heart and consciousness beyond this narrow reward -and- punishment view of Reality and seek the healing of such black-and-white thinking. We do our best to be a source of blessing and not of negativity even though we know that, despite our most sincere efforts, Existence will not always be fair to us. We do not deserve all the dire consequences enumerated in Ki Tavo, but we know that life is not always easy and painless. How we react to adversity defines our humanity.


Yet, there is something of the child in us, that still wishes Existence would be like a fairytale in which the wicked are punished and the righteous are rewarded. What we can hope for, I believe, is that the circumstances of our lives not be made worse by our choices and that Consciousness will evolve sufficiently that we can truly manifest grace and wholeness.


The Israelites wondered in the wilderness for 40 years before they were ready to receive “a heart that knows and eyes that see and ears that hear” (Deuteronomy 29:3). May these gifts of spiritual maturity be our reward for our commitment to teshuva this year, for our choice to walk together on the ever-challenging path of righteousness.


With blessing for wisdom of heart,

Rabbi SaraLeya

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Parashat Shoftim

“You shall appoint shoftim, judges and shotrim, officers, at all your gates... and they shall judge the people justly. Do not pervert judgment by showing favoritism or taking bribes... Tzedek, tzedek tirdof -justice, justice shall you pursue, that you may live, and inherit the land....” (Deuteronomy 16:18-20)

Our parasha begins with the injunction to set up a system of courts. In fact we are to actively pursue righteousness – tzedek (a word with the same Hebrew root as tzedaka which means far more than just charity) - in our judging of others. This is a higher standard than that of simply deciding guilt or innocence. I invite you to consider how justice and righteousness (two common translations for the word tzedek) might, in fact, differ…

Hasidic thought, however, directs these verses to the individual. The gates of the person are the 7 openings of the senses: 2 ears, 2 eyes, 2 nostrils, one mouth. Thus we are enjoined to judge and monitor the gates to the inner recesses of our selves. We can refuse to listen to slander. We can open our eyes to let in injustice, but not to witness the shame of another person. The sense of smell connects directly to the deepest, most primitive places in the brain. We can be scrupulous by taking in only ethically-raised food, savoring it with gratitude. We can be certain that only words of integrity leave our mouths. How else might guarding our senses be beneficial to our well-being?

“When you go out to war.... a man who is afraid and tender-hearted may return to his home lest he melt the hearts of his brothers…” (Deuteronomy 20:1, 8)

These are words I wrote 3 years ago for this parasha, as my son Carl prepared to follow his heart’s path to join the army in Israel:

We are certain that all of our sons and daughters who are soldiers are souldiers-- with a core place of rakhut-lev --tenderheartedness. We know our children and we know that they all have that place of deep inner goodness and vulnerability, that inner point of essence, that inner point of goodness of which the hassidic rebbes speak. And we pray that this place be protected from soul-injury when they go to battle. We pray that, when called upon, they act from this place of truth, that they always pursue righteousness and justice -
tzedek tzedek tirdof. We know that the young men and women who go to war will be changed by what they experience. We can only pray that they heal from their time of soldiering.

Here is the blessing from this verse: we know that all of our souldiers have tender hearts, they all have families and homes they love. We bless them with strength and protection to follow their ideals, to fight for what gives their lives meaning and to come back from war with their core of goodness intact and unharmed.


With blessing for of wisdom of heart,

Rabbi SaraLeya
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Monday, August 4, 2008

Mase’ei and Rosh Chodesh Av: The Threshold of the Promised Land - by Zelig Golden

During this Shabbat we celebrate Rosh Chodesh Av (The new moon of Av) and we confront a great paradox. The full summer sun is passing high in the sky. Flowers are blooming; tomatoes are bursting from the vine; we are harvesting the fruits of our labors on earth. Summer is the time of greatest abundance. Yet in our tradition, we are moving through a period of darkness.

We are in the midst of a 21-day period of reflection on brokenness as we approach Tisha B’av, the commemoration of the destruction of the Holy Temple, a day of fasting and mourning our dark places. During these three weeks “between the strictures” we are invited to look deeply into ourselves and into the world and ask “what is broken?”

Deep in the psyche of our tradition is the notion that wholeness comes from brokenness, just as we learn in the first lines of the Torah that light comes from darkness. (Gen. 1:1-3). Thus, this time of dark reflection serves to enable us to bring light from within ourselves into the world. As Rabbi Eliezer teaches, just as this period of darkness from the 17th of Tammuz to the 9th of Av lasts 21 days, the almond tree blossom flowers for 21 days. (Lamentations Rabbah, Prologue 23). From Rabbi Eliezer, we learn that tragedy and mourning are ephemeral blossoms, leading to greater experience and understanding, and eventually opening us to joy and celebration.

This week’s Torah portion, Mase’ei (the marches), epitomizes why we must explore our brokenness in the heat of the summer and resolves for me the paradox of Rosh Chodesh Av. In Mase’ei, we reflect on the 40 years of marching and wandering through the b’midbar – the ‘wilderness’, the ‘desert’, the expansive place of reflection and learning – with Moses as our guide from Egyptian liberation to the threshold of Canaan, the ‘promised land’. This Torah portion also finishes the book of Numbers and marks the end of our physical journey with Moses. Here at the boundary of Canaan, our people will finally arrive in the ‘promise land’ – but Moses will not enter. We will do it on our own, independent of our father, guide and leader of over 40 years.

Rosh Chodesh Av and Mase’ei together teach that we must explore the b’midbar of our lives and reflect on our brokenness so that we can fully step into our wholeness as individuals, and as a nation. Only then can we step across the threshold into our ‘promised land.’ Read the rest

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Parashat Pinhas

In the parasha named after him, Pinhas, grandson of Aaron, the high priest, and nephew of Moses, receives a Covenant of Shalom and Eternal Priesthood. This was the reward for an abrupt and violent act of bloodshed (described at the end of last week's Torah reading) that ended a plague among the Israelites. We are left asking how an act of killing can be thus rewarded. Can violence among people ever be what the Holy One desires? Our text brings this question to us directly. Pinhas acted decisively and selflessly for the sake of the sanctity of the Tent of Meeting. Violence was the solution in this story, but we choose to pray, in our time and world, that other means be more effective.

Any violent act, however, no matter how "justified", leaves its scar on the actor and a trail of grief, mourning and pain for others. When you look at the hand-written text in the Torah scroll (Numbers 25:12), the letter vav of the word shalom is broken into two pieces, perhaps, reminding us of the wound in the fabric of Existence that is both the antecedent and the result of any act of violence. And, so, we pray for the new Way to manifest so our actions will truly bring about shalom – peace and wholeness. Let this be our communal covenant: to always see the spark of Divinity in each other and always treat each other in a way that serves the purpose of manifesting ever more kedusha – holiness - in our lives. Then we can truly be a community of priests and priestesses, all dedicated to the purpose of becoming a source of healing and transformation for ourselves, for Gaia and all the beings who share this holy earth with us.


With blessing for wisdom of heart,

Rabbi SaraLeya

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Parashat Balak

A talking donkey and a sword-brandishing angel draw us into the story of Bilaam, a non-Israelite prophet who had a direct relationship with YHVH. The Moabite king, Balak, is terrified of the Israelites after their conquest of neighboring tribes and promised Bilaam riches in exchange for cursing the Children of Israel. Three times Bilaam opened his mouth with the intention to curse, but only blessings came out. Our morning prayer, "Ma tovu ohaleikha Yaakov, mishkinoteikha Yisrael - How goodly are your tents, O Jacob, your dwelling places O Israel" comes from this parasha and are the words of the Divine coming through this non-Israelite prophet.

One simple lesson from this story, something we experience together at Chochmat HaLev, is that relationship with the G!d of Torah is not exclusive to the Israelites – a priest from another tribe has the spiritual power to both bless and curse as well as communicate directly with YHVH . To us, this lesson may seem obvious. For those more attached to the rightness of their own religious paths, however, the understanding that there are many ways to the Oneness may not be so apparent, and our parasha teaches this to us specifically.


But Bilaam's story also leads us to ask what it means to "do G!d's will". So often we pray that our will be aligned with that of the Unity – that what we want for ourselves and what the Universe gives us be the same. This is not always the easy path. Bilaam had no choice but to speak the words which Hashem placed in his mouth, even though his lesser self would rather have taken the riches promised by Balak.


As an incarnate soul with limited vision, I pray that, when I bless others, my words carry the power of that which is Best and Whole in the world. May we always be able to hear the words of our speaking donkeys and see the angels who show up to help us walk our lives' paths.


With blessing for wisdom of heart,

Rabbi SaraLeya

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Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Parshat Hukkat

In a typically terse Torah story (Numbers 20), we learn that Miriam died and was buried. The next verse simply states that the people were without water and complained to Moses and Aaron. And so a rabbinic legend about Miriam's miraculous well fills in the space between these two verses. Miriam was the source of water as the Israelites journeyed in the wilderness for 40 years. When she died, the well dried up and the people panicked. YHVH appeared and told Moses to speak to the rock so water would flow. Moses apparently didn't pay sufficient attention, or was tired of the people's complaints and lack of faith over the years – perhaps made even more irritating as he mourned for Miriam – and he hit the rock instead of speaking to it.



From that moment of impatience, the Divine Wisdom realized that Moses and Aaron were not the leaders who could take the Israelites to the next step. Their soul-missions were complete and they would rest in the wilderness and not cross over the Jordan River into the mythical Promised Land. Joshua and Eleazar will lead the people in the next phase of their journey.



Once again, Torah leads us to ask deep questions and, hopefully, allows us to receive the blessing of insight into ourselves. Moses' mistake was one of being angry and irritable. He acted impulsively instead of according to instructions. How often does our emotional state lead us to act before reflecting, to react before listening? What gets in our way of hearing what the Divine voice is saying to us?



I take Moses' action seriously as I begin to work with Chochmat HaLev as rabbi and spiritual leader. I pray that I always be patient enough to hear both what is said and what is not said, and that I consider carefully before I act. I bless us all that we may manifest the soul-traits of wisdom and tranquility of heart as together we move to the next phase in the life of this holy community. May the wellspring of inspiration accompany us on this journey.





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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Parashat Korah

Once again Torah confront us with troubling narrative. Much earlier, in Exodus (19:6), The Holy One tells the people through Moses “You will be for me a nation of priests and a holy people”. Now, Korah, with 3 other leaders and another 250 people of good reputation, complain that Moses and Aaron have taken too much for themselves. “You have too much! For the entire community, they are all holy and YHVH is in their midst. Why do you raise yourselves above Hashem’s congregation?" (Numbers 16: 3).

The punishment for the participants in this “rebellion” was severe – being swallowed by earth or consumed by fire, and those who then complained about the severity of the penalty were afflicted by a plague. Centuries of commentary have sought to find answers and justifications to the deep questions raised, but I continue to be haunted by the simplicity of the question: are we not all equally holy? Certainly Korah’s band may have been resentful of Moses’ power and Aaron’s priestly rights, but does not their question have merit?

Perhaps, the imagery of Aaron’s flowering staff (17:23) contains an answer. Aaron’s produces almond flowers because his path is that of the priesthood and that is the path discussed in this Torah story. We each have a metaphoric staff to use for support as we walk our path, a staff that will flower when we are on our unique life-mission. We each are equally holy. We each have a perfect and divine soul. We each have an essential role to play in the evolution of humanity. But, too, we each are different. Korah could no more be Aaron than Aaron could be Moses. I pray that we each embrace our personal blessings and challenges as our unique path to holiness. In community, may we sustain and complete each other.

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Sh'lakh L'kha

Parashat Sh'lakh L'kha begins with the story of the 12 tribal leaders who were sent by Moses to scout out the land across the Jordan in preparation for the Israelites to enter this place that had been promised to their forefathers. The land was indeed flowing with milk and honey, but 10 of the 12 scouts were terrified by the daunting task of conquering the peoples who lived there. "All the people we saw in it are men of great size….we looked like grasshoppers to ourselves and so we must have looked to them" (Numbers 13:32-33). Despite the arguments of Joshua and Caleb, the 10 convinced the rest of the Israelites of the impossibility of the task and the people were condemned to wondering in the desert for 40 years until the generation who left Egypt – and had known slavery - died off.

This is my birth parasha, the portion that was being read during the week of my birth. As such, each year I look for a special meaning in my life. The practice of looking into one’s birth parasha can be an annual source of deep spiritual discovery.

This year, I wondered about the response quoted above – first the scouts felt like grasshoppers and then attributed this judgment to the Canaanites. How often we project our own insecurities and assume that others' opinion of us mirrors our own poor self-esteem! How do we find the perfect balance between undeserved self-aggrandizement and self-effacement that does not serve our higher purpose? Marching off on a mission of which I am not capable is as foolish as failing to step up to something that I must do, and that I can do. True humility acknowledges our gifts and missions while accepting the truth of our strengths and weaknesses. Just as blind egoism does not serve the soul, neither does false humility.

What lessons are in this parasha for this special GeLieBTe Shabbat? Three small gems present themselves. This is the week we have been celebrating the extension of the right of civil marriage to the GLBT community and we read in verse 15:15 that when offering up sacrifice, there shall be a single rule for the kahal as a whole, including both the congregation and for the resident stranger. Too long the GLBT community has been treated as resident outsider. This Shabbat we celebrate the biblical injunction that there be one law for all of us– hakahal hukat ahat. The text is even more inclusive when it acknowledges that an entire community can make a collective mistake and be then forgiven (15:24-26): we bear shared responsibility for all the times we have allowed someone else to be treated as “other”, and as a community we ask for pardon. Finally, our parasha ends with the commandment of wearing tzitzit, fringes, on our garments – a visible reminder to awaken to holiness (15:37-41) and the last paragraph of the Sh’ma. When we say the Sh’ma and affirm the Oneness of all, we gather in the fringes of our selves to our heart. And, so, may all the disparate elements of our community be gathered together into our one unified heart.

Together, let’s begin the deep inner work of seeing ourselves in the light of truth and meditating deeply on our lives’ soul tasks. May we acknowledge that we can only be a community when it becomes a home for every individual.

With blessing for wisdom of heart,
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Friday, June 6, 2008

Rosh Chodesh Sivan and Tikkun Leyl Shavuot

By Rabbi SaraLeya Schley

Dear Chochmat HaLev Community,



Hodesh Tov! This week we celebrate the new moon of Sivan – the month of transition between spring and summer. New moons are always a time of potential for transformation. We are also in the final week of counting-down to the Shavuot festival when we stand together again at Sinai. This is the week of Malkhut, the week of the week of Shekhina, the week of receptivity and becoming the vessel that will allow us to experience Revelation anew.

And, the parasha for this week, Naso, is the longest weekly portion of the entire year – a complex tapestry describing portage duties of the Levites, a ritual for suspected adultery, a way for dedication of the self to a path of rigor, and a very repetitive list of gifts by each of the tribes at the dedication of the Tabernacle. The gem at the center of this parasha is the text of the Priestly Blessings – a topic we will be studying together at the community-wide Shavuot learning fest Tikkun next Sunday evening at the East Bay JCC.

Tucked away into these accounts is a pearl of spiritual advice (Numbers 5: 5-7). Here we learn that whenever we commit any of the misdeeds possible for us to do as humans, we are breaking faith with the Holy One, too. Whenever we deceive or harm each other, there are cosmic repercussions – our actions actually affect the very fabric of existence, the Mystery itself. Once again, we are held to the highest ethical standards as we realize our interconnectedness and honor the Unity. Each of us, as an incarnate Divine spark, is integral to Divinity, and, as such our responsibility to the All is serious.

I bless us to be worthy of each other and of our holy community. Let us open ourselves to receiving the renewed Torah that is waiting to come through each of us.

With blessing,

Rabbi SaraLeya



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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Bemidbar, and Greetings

By Rabbi SaraLeya Schley

Dear Chochmat HaLev community,

First, I want to let you know how honored I am to have been selected to be your spiritual leader and I look forward to July when I will actually begin. As I wrote in my application letter, this is the culmination of 10 years of dreaming and studying. It is my intention, with the help of the Holy One, to write a brief Dvar Torah – word of Torah – for the weekly newsletter as often as possible.

This week we begin reading the 4th book of Torah. Its Hebrew name, Bemidbar, reminds us that the setting of this book is in the midbar – the wilderness (desert is a less-accurate translation) of Sinai. In contrast, the English name of the Book of Numbers speaks to the content of the parasha which is about counting and the orderly arrangement of the Israelite tribes. Early rabbinic midrash comments that “anyone who does not make oneself hefker – ownerless - like a wilderness cannot acquire wisdom and Torah”. Just as wilderness cannot be claimed as property, in order for us to become wise (to acquire chochmah) we also must become ownerless. For me, this means letting go of preconceptions and attachments that limit my potential in study and prayer and community. For some, it might mean sitting in the stillness and listening. For others, it may be the openness experienced after ecstatic prayer and dance. What does it mean to you? How can being “ownerless” lead us to wisdom and Torah?

And, we remember, that the story of our text also reminds us that we are simultaneously in the wilderness and being counted as integral members of community.

With blessing as we journey together to create a community that allows each of us to be both unbounded and Connected,

Rabbi SaraLeya




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Saturday, May 3, 2008

Drash: Kedoshim

By Brian Schachter-Brooks


In Bereishit, which contains the creation myth of the Torah, there is a strange line about the function of the first human beings who are created and placed in the Garden of Eden. The text says that God put them there l’avdah ul’shamra- “to work it and to guard it (2:15).” It is strange because the rest of the text does not paint a picture of gan eden as a place that needs to be worked. On the contrary, Adam and Havah seem to just walk around and eat the fruit which grows on the trees; there doesn’t seem to be any need for “gardening” the garden. Furthermore, the need to work the earth seems to arise as a curse for eating the forbidden fruit- “…b’zayat apeykha tokhal lekhem- by the sweat of your brow you will eat bread (3:19).” Living in the gan seems to mean harmony with nature, eating that which grows naturally. Living outside the gan means civilization; it means working the earth to grow grain and eat bread rather than fruit.

So what does it mean, then, that Adam and Havah worked and guarded the garden? In nature, there is nothing that exist only for itself. Although every life form is driven to preserve and perpetuate itself, the life process of each life form is integral to the life processes of many other life forms, tied together in a delicate web of give and take. We humans tend to impose our shortsighted morality onto nature, seeing nature as a brutal and amoral place. But this is due to our own lack of vision of the Whole. For example, we tend to cringe at the violence of a predator killing its prey, unaware that the suffering of being eaten is far more merciful then the slow starvation which would happen if the prey were to become overpopulated.

So in this sense, the situation of living in harmony with nature is the way one “works the garden.” Adam and Havah weren’t farmers; simply by living, by eating and breathing and excreting and reproducing, they were playing a role in the life of the whole planet.

This myth is probably a deep memory of prehistoric humanity- life before humans entered the stream of recorded time. When Adam and Havah are expelled from the garden, the hallmark quality is a sense of separation in three forms. First, they become separate from each other, as they realize they are naked and cloth themselves. Second, they become separate from God, as it says that they hid themselves from God out of shame. Third, they become separate from nature, as it says that the ground is cursed, and “…b’zayat apeykha tokhal lekhem- by the sweat of your brow you will eat bread (3:19).”

And what is the thing that creates this condition of separation? The eating from the eitz hada’at tov v’ra- the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Bad. What does it mean to eat? It means that the thing you eat becomes part of you; it becomes who you are. The Tree of knowledge represents division; it represents seeing the world as split into that which “I” want and that which “I” don’t want. It represents division. So when they eat from the forbidden fruit, they are making division part of themselves; they are becoming divided.

This is not to say that prior to eating the fruit they didn’t have preference or desire. On the contrary, it says that “vateireh ha’isha ki tov ha’eitz l’ma’akhal- and the woman saw that the tree was good to eat.” Havah wanted to eat from the tree, so desire must have existed before she ate. Of course, all animals have desire and preference. The difference is that after eating, preference becomes identity. And this is the beginning of history with its heroes and villains- no longer is the universe a unified garden, but humanity is pitted against a universe that must be controlled in order to bend to human preference. But since reality is fundamentally uncontrollable, we are forced to experience the meaninglessness of our efforts. We try to immortalize ourselves in various ways, just like the pharaohs of Egypt sought immortality through embalming their bodies in pyramids, but ultimately everything dies and decays. The answer is not winning the fight with nature, but consciously returning to the state of unity prior to becoming separate.

How is this to be accomplished? It cannot be accomplished; it cannot happen by doing something, but by learning how not to do something. That is, learning how not to eat from the Tree of Knowledge. How do we eat from the Tree of Knowledge? By contracting around our own preference, by insisting on something from reality, by demanding something from God.

But to surrender our preference means first we have to be willing to see how we cling to our desire. We have to be willing to let our desire be there without clinging to it, and this implies separating ourselves from it. And this is the paradox- that by separating ourselves from the Tree of Knowledge, we actually fall back into Unity. By separating ourselves from our tendency to create separation, we recover the original Oneness of Eden.

The word for this kind of separation that actually reveals unity is kadosh. Kadosh means holy or sacred, in the sense of being special, set apart, or set aside. In our tradition we have so many examples of things that are holy- holy times such as Shabbat, holy books such as the Torah, holy words of prayer and so on. All of these things are set apart from ordinary life in order to point to the Unity, to point to God. but the ultimate kadosh is not in setting aside special times or rituals, but in setting aside yourself. That is, setting aside your false identity which divides the world according to your preferences.

Then you can realize the truth of the opening words of this parashah: “kedoshim tihyu ki kadosh ani HaShem Elokeihem- you shall be holy, for I am holy, HaShem your God.” Meaning, when you become holy by setting yourself aside, you realize that you are not separate from HaShem; the same Oneness that expresses Itself in all of nature is expressing Itself in you also- there is no separation. At that point, our actions lose that suffering quality of “…b’zayat apeykha tokhal lekhem- by the sweat of your brow you will eat bread,” and instead express the quality of simplicity, of “tending the garden.” Through the wholeness of all our relationships, we naturally play our role within creation, surrendered to the Order that effortlessly includes us within it.

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Friday, May 2, 2008

Kedoshim, the Holy Ones

By Zelig Golden and Kerrick Lucker

The parsha this week is Kedoshim, meaning “holy ones.” Kedoshim is how some people refer to the Jews killed in the Holocaust—appropriate for today, Holocaust Remembrance Day or Yom ha Shoah v'ha Gevurah. In Kedoshim, God tells Moses: “You shall be holy, for I the Lord your God am holy.”(Lev. 9:2). This parsha then prescribes many of the mitzvot, or rules of conduct, that should lead to this holiness. For example, here we are told to honor our father and mother, observe Shabbat, and leave some crops in the field for the poor. This parsha, however, also offers rules that may no longer resonate with us—in particular the prohibition of intercourse between men as punishable by death (Lev. 20:13).

How can we follow the mitzvot when some resonate with us and others seem cruel or nonsensical? The famous story of Rabbi Hillel the Elder is instructive. When a student challenged Hillel to teach him all of the Torah while standing on one foot, Hillel taught, “That which is hateful to you do not do to your fellow. The rest is commentary—go and learn it.” Hillel’s legacy is a powerful one—and allows us to understand the Torah based on our time. We understand the intent of the mitzvot is to keep us from doing to another what is hateful to us; if a mitzvah seems to require us to do to another what is hateful, we must interpret it according to our heart’s truth.

We may also ask how, in face of genocide such as we remember today at Yom HaShoah, as we have seen in Rwanda, and as we see right now in Darfur, we can have faith in humanity and God. After so long, how is it that humans have not learned Hillel's fundamental truth? That we remember Yom HaShoah today of all days may help us. Passover has just ended; we stand in our liberation. Spring is bursting forth from the earth with green new life. We are also on the 12th day of the counting of the Omer—hod b’gevurah, which can be translated as “receiving the brokenness.” Thus we are taught that even as we recognize our rebirth, we also recognize our brokenness, and from this brokenness we move toward wholeness – the end is a beginning and the beginning is an end.

As we solemnly remember the fires of the Holocaust today, we also must recognize that we are singing, dancing, praying and following our Jewish practices in freedom and without fear. The message, then, is one of hope. Yes, we have experienced much tragedy that we must never forget and there is tragedy in the world today that we must not turn our back on. And we can have faith that from this brokenness will grow wholeness. As Holy Ones, our job is simple: to remember, to have hope and to love. While it is not our job to finish the work to bring wholeness to the world, we are instructed as Jews not to refrain from it.


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Monday, February 18, 2008

Drash: Tetzaveh

By Brian Schachter-Brooks

One of the great failures of the religious traditions is that in attempting to forge a vision of unity, they tend to reduce the richness of our multi-faceted experience into only one type of experience. An example of this can be seen in the different approaches to the duality of “personal” vs. “impersonal.”

Some teachings claim that everything that happens is totally personal. In this way of thinking, it is not merely our human relationships that are personal, but the meetings we have with nature, the seemingly random events that happen to us daily, and even the positions of the stars are totally personal. To embrace this kind of approach is to see meaning everywhere and to have a personal relationship with all of existence.

Other teachings claim that reality is essentially impersonal. In this approach, one is encouraged to see even human relationships as impersonal. The same impersonal laws of nature which govern the cosmos are also unfolding in how we interact with one another. We are encouraged to “take nothing personally” and to not project our own sense of meaning on the world. To embrace this kind of approach is to not be caught in the web of judgment and accept things as they are, without personal attachment.

Both of these views are born of an attempt to reconcile the confusion of our dualistic, complex experience. But the fact is, we experience reality as both impersonal and personal, and this is unsettling. We long for clarity, for a universe that makes sense, for a view that will give us a unified way of approaching life. And so we gravitate toward beliefs that are reductionist, that elevate part of our experience as real and label the other part as unreal.

But these reductionist approaches, whether they be the personal, faith-based leaning of Western religions or the impersonal, non-attachment leaning of Eastern religions, ultimately do not work- not just because they are not true, but because they fail to reach the heart of the problem. The heart of the problem is not the complexity of our experience, but the complexity of the “I” that is experiencing it. If we want to find real unity, we won’t find it by pretending that reality is simple when it’s not. Rather, we need to discover the aspect of ourselves that is unity; we need to find the root of our experience which is the deep source of thought, the totally simple and radiant root of our own being, which is also called Hokhmat HaLev- Wisdom of the Heart.


This parashah begins with the mitzvah of pressing olives for olive oil that is to be used to light the ner tamid- the constantly burning lamp in the portable sanctuary called the mishkan, and later in the Jerusalem temple. “V’atah t’tzaveh et b’nai Yisra’el- and you (Moses) shall command the children of Israel- v’yik’hu eilekha shemen zayit- they shall take for you olive oil- zakh, katit lama’or- pure, pressed for illumination- l’ha’alot ner tamid- to kindle a lamp continuously.”

When you press olives for oil, you are taking something that is complex- the olive fruit, with its skin, flesh and pit, and you are extracting from it something that is simple- the continuous, flowing substance of the oil. Then, when you burn the oil, it becomes the fuel for producing heat and light. This process is a precise metaphor for the inner work. First you must take that which is complex- your own infinitely branching tendrils of thought, and “press” it into its essence, which is a pure simplicity. How is this done? “L’ha’alot ner tamid- to kindle a lamp continuously.” The “kindling” of the “lamp” is a metaphor for awareness; just as you need light in the physical world to see, so you need awareness in your inner world to perceive. So to the degree that you can keep your inner lamp continuously burning, your ever branching streams of thought return to their root, which is awareness itself.

In this way, rather than pacifying the anxiety of living in a reality that is one moment intimately personal and the next moment vastly impersonal, we open to the all embracing unity which is our own attention. Because in the field of our attention, all opposites can coexist without tension; our awareness receives everything as it is, with all its contradiction.

There is a mystical idea in the Kabbalah and in Hassidism that God is the true reality, and that the phenomenal world we see around us is like a covering, hiding the reality of God. But the truth is actually the exact opposite. When we look around, we often don’t connect with the world, because there is the barrier of our own minds in the way. We feel disconnected, and we long for unity, so we invent the mental idea of “God” which is the true reality, as a Being separate from the world. But what we really need to do is find the world hidden in the word “God.” Because “God” is ultimately not something different from Reality Itself; if we want to find God, we need only to pay attention to reality around us in this moment.

This is also the message implied in the holiday of Purim which is coming in this month of Adar. On Purim we read the Megillat Ester- the Scroll of Esther- in which God is not even mentioned once. The idea is that God is the story itself; the synchronistic events in this redemptive story are the unfolding of God as reality; God and the world are not two separate things. Similarly, this parashat T’tzaveh is the only parashah in the book of Sh’mot in which Moses’ name is not mentioned, implying that the Torah, the Teaching, is not limited by the man Moses, but is the unfolding the story itself. And the “story” is happening Now; it is reality unfolding in this moment. From this we can begin to understand the Talmudic saying that “God, Israel and the Torah are One.”

There is another saying- “Misheh nikhnas Adar marbim simkha- when Adar enters, joy increases.” What greater joy could there be than realizing that the God we seek has been here all along and it could never be otherwise! As we approach the celebration of Purim with its concealing costumes and masks, may we remove the mask of our own judgmental minds, so that we may behold the Divine which is nothing but Reality Itself.

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